Tuesday, January 22, 2013

flooded with the present

In case you didn't know yet, I am a planner.

One of my compulsive habits is to envision exactly how my life is going to pan out...over the next week, the next year, the next few years. I know this is a bad habit. I have resolved again and again to be more present, and to remember that life can change in a matter of seconds. The best laid schemes of mice and men often go awry...


Over time, I think I've gotten better about going with the flow. But every once in awhile, I slip back into my controlling, planning comfort zone. I'd been doing this the past few days, even thinking to myself, you don't know what might happen at any moment. A carefully planned week is sure to be interrupted in my world, and I kept trying to remind myself of that.

It was a little reminder that nagged me like a drop of water on my shoulder...

Like a drop of water dripping on my shoulder from the bathroom ceiling...

Like a drop of water that turned into a stream from the light fixture.

Like a stream of water from the upstairs apartment, where the tenant left the faucet running before leaving for work.

Like a flooded floor, ruined towels, and a tense first day of class (without a shower).

Life happens.

And suddenly my weekly schedule and long-term plan to keep our apartment for another year were, um...interrupted. But I'm still smiling, because at the end of the day, everything is ok, and life just happened.

So I am reminded. Thanks, universe. I'll try to live in the moment more.


But there is just one thing we might start planning. If anyone knows of a good apartment opening up this summer, let us know?

8 comments:

  1. Oh no! The insurance nerd in me has a lot to say about this - but I'll refrain. So sorry this happened on your first day of classes - but glad you're still smiling! :) Love you!

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    1. I'd be interested in hearing this!

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  2. oh gosh :( i am sorry about that. i, too, am a planner and that sounds like a major bummer. i loved the way you wrote this - how you told this story and it unfolded.

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  3. WAIT! I totally read this post, meant to comment "ME TOO ME TOO I'M A PLANNER TOO!", forgot about it....

    ...and a day later wrote a post about how I like things to go as planned. So I'm gonna go ahead and give you for credit for inceptioning me with the inspiration for tomorrow's post.

    PS- Sorry to hear about your leaky ceiling! But... MOVE TO COOLIDGE CORNER. Me and you and Mackenz can have play dates all day every day. #meant2be

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    1. Ha ha, thanks! I would LOVE to move to Coolidge Corner. We talk about this decision almost every day...and we probably won't decide until we have a deadline. =/

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  4. WAIT! I totally read this post, meant to comment "ME TOO ME TOO I'M A PLANNER TOO!", forgot about it....

    ...and a day later wrote a post about how I like things to go as planned. So I'm gonna go ahead and give you for credit for inceptioning me with the inspiration for tomorrow's post.

    PS- Sorry to hear about your leaky ceiling! But... MOVE TO COOLIDGE CORNER. Me and you and Mackenz can have play dates all day every day. #meant2be

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  5. I am exactly like you - plan for everything, plan for everything you haven't planned for, etc etc. It drives other people a little mad (myself included). You're right though - a change in the expected is almost welcome because it forces me to take a step back and realize I'm not in charge of nearly as much as I thought and it's a little comforting to know that

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  6. annnnnnnnd once again you posted something for the perfect timing. god, i needed this :) it's scary/crazy how quickly the brain can move to thoughts so far ahead. i want to print all of this out for my room/basically everywhere ;)

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Thanks for making me smile. =)